Unbelief I convinced myself you didn’t exist anymore Denying the possibility Relying on my ability to suppress the shameful truth Shouldn’t a Christian be free of doubt Shouldn’t I have all this Figured out, worked out, thought out washed every spot out of my unrenewed mind I’ve got history being a radical guy There’s no mystery buried inside of my soul If I didn’t have faith, if I didn’t believe What good would I be What would you think of me, God But here I am Standing alone in the empty desert of my soul No water, no wind, no fertile oasis No shelter to hide in God, what kind of place is this I thought I’d find passion and zeal without end But I’ve stumbled upon all my weakness instead Barrenness, brokenness, frailty and lack Fragile and lonesome, no more than a vacuum I look to the left and see unanswered prayers And off to the right, frustration is staring me down Unfulfilled longings and promises pending Heaps of offense and grudges aplenty O, wretch that I am Filthy and vile Guilty, unrighteous, disgrace for a child of God Crooked, nefarious, scandalous, treacherous Wicked, insidious, two-faced hideous man Saturated all throughout Permeated, filled with doubt O, Lord, turn away Don’t poison your eyes By looking at all of this wreckage inside You won’t find much faith or belief worth your time I’m bitter, offended, confused, and upset You asked for my heart, and here’s what you get I’ve poured out my everything Nothing to hide Like water that runs til the river is dry For a moment I sit in the silent nothing All laid bare Naked and scared of this wilderness But suddenly, I’m not the only one here A whisper A gentle noise A tender, familiar, compassionate voice “And I love you still” he says in a hush In fact I am moved all the more with affection Because of your painful, but honest confession Your boldness to face the true revelation Your bravery, accepting my invitation To go lower Dig deeper Wait longer Scream louder Descending further Extending your reach beyond just the surface Why do you fear that I am against you When hear I lay conquered Undone Struck down Ravished by your courage to stand in that dangerous, desolate, barren wasteland I’m not waiting to meet you with sad disappointment But with showers of mercy And healing ointment You think you’ve invited the wrath of the judge But, O, you’ve ignited the white flame of love The consuming fire Relentless desire Blazing with jealousy Towering higher than the heavens You see, a doctor must open his patient To reach in his body and bring restoration So I’ve opened your heart, wounded and bleeding To reach deep inside and release my healing touch I’ve opened the vault that was empty and dull To fill it with treasures imperishable Immeasurable Undefiled Never to fade away O, how I have tricked you You supposed yourself the bully The enemy The adversary of my goodness But I have made you the victim of incomprehensible love You awaited my hostility But invited my proximity For I am near to the brokenhearted My son, there is no escape There’s no way out No other fate Not even a fool’s hope that I could break The shackles of desire wrapped around my wrists Or that you could break away Because I have never missed A chance to pursue you This is true intimacy To offer a heart that is broken and bruised But confident, knowing you won’t be refused Abandoned Excluded Refuted Denied Or disowned Rejected Unaccepted or scorned But tenderly held like a mother’s newborn This is true intimacy To lay it all out on the line And not to be opposed or tried By a jury, a judge, a court of condemnation But to be accepted without accusation To offer weakness and be rewarded with strength True intimacy is not for the people Who take their refuge in a steeple Or anyone who hides behind The facade of righteousness that blinds The already deaf and lame To the righteousness that has a name Jesus It is his righteousness that fans the flame Of my desire for you True intimacy is not for those Who fear the wilderness that shows Their absolute incapability To produce their own humility It is for those who have the courage To mine the depths beyond the surface Knowing that they’re sure to find Horrors and disgusting kinds of secrets That expose even more of their weakness But one other thing they know One truth that invites their slow descent Into the depths of humanity That there I wait with arms wide open There they’ll find a blessed hope in me So, no more hiding No more running or confiding In your clean untarnished spaces Venture to the barren places Warm embraces wait for you there Pour out your heart like water before me That I may drink deep of your love for me Come with a broken heart Come with a spirit crushed Bruised Shattered Torn And cracked That you may bask in the sun of righteousness And as you open up your heart Let your ears be open too To hear the voice like peals of thunder Shouting, “My delight is in you!”

Take me away to be with you Draw me away so I can run with you We will fall in love like the first time We will fall in love like the first time There is no place I'd rather be There is no place I'd rather be There is no place I'd rather be Than here with you now I'm with you now, with you now With you now, Jesus

Your love is deep Your love is wide Reaching from east to east across the sky Your love is pure Your love is strong Holding the universe together Your love is better than, better than All the fleeting pleasure and treasures and wine Of this world Your love is near Your love is with me Never abandoning the one you call your own Your love is sweet Your love is hear to stay Always embracing me with affection Your love is better than wine Your love is better than life itself Your love is so much better Your love is so much better Your love is so much better, better

We come to give you the highest praises We come to worship in heavenly places Yahweh, we have come to give you thanks We love your name You are our portion On you we wait Our heart's desire is for more More of you, more of you, more of you More of you, more of you, more of you Jesus

Songs, hear the songs being sung All around the throne See his throne high above, lifted up Your dwelling place, O God, is a wonder Full of beauty Wrapped in mercy This is why we set our gaze on you Praise is waiting for you Incense rising to you Glory all around your temple Elders bowing low Angels fall before you Color dancing in the sky Light, see the light, how it shines All the rainbow beams, how it beams As a jewel, like a diamond God, your dwelling place is amazing

In your presence is fullness of joy At your right hand are pleasures forevermore We're gonna dance in the river Streams of living water Gonna stand in your fire Burning with desire Going up in the Spirit Take us even higher We want more, we want more, we want more, more, more We want more, more, more of your presence More, more, more of you, Jesus More, more, more of your presence

I've tried to sacrifice, tried to earn my way I've tried to pay a price that I wasn't meant to pay What are you asking for Why do you search inside me What could I bring that you don't already have Love is what I have to give If you will take it Though I know it's not much I know you won't forsake it God I give you my, God I give you my love God I give you my, God I give you my love It's like I never heard you say that I was free It's like I have a fear that it's not enough to just be me Is this what you're asking for Is this why you search inside me Is this what I bring that you don't already have What you want is a love that's not manipulated What you want is a heart that's not afraid to lay it all down Cuz you laid it all down Threw your crown on the ground when you found me Wallowing in my blood And you said, "Live, child" You said, "Live, child" You said to be in my blood live, live, live

You call me brother, you call me son You tell me I'm your favorite one To be with you is the place where I belong You take my sorrow, take my shame All my burdens, all of my pain You turn my cry for help into a beautiful song Jesus, Jesus, it is you Always faithful, ever true In you I find all my soul's delight Jesus, Jesus, you're the one Worthy of all my affection There is none like you in all this world All of my life I've been searching for you Only to find that you've been searching too And I can hardly imagine what treasures await In knowing your passion and beholding your face

I arise and you are waiting there for me I see your eyes anticipating what will be Lord, you know that I'm learning to receive All the gifts you give, and all of these good, good things You hold back no good thing from me (4x) Let me hear your voice, let me see your face Let me run with you and never leave this place Lord you know that I'm learning to believe That you are good and you hold back no good thing You keep every promise (4x) You give good gifts to your little kids And we'll never lack 'cuz you hold back no good thing

Father of all good things Great is your love All of your children sing Your daughters and your sons For all that you say and all that you do We're falling more in love with you Your love is like You love is like A waterfall of life A waterfall of life Jesus, the Morning Star Faithful and true Romance our fainting hearts We long to be with you Spirit that dwells within Here to abide Always we'll call you friend Your presence is our life Waterfall, waterfall of life Waterfall, waterfall inside

The stars, embroidered in the sky The moon, embellishing the night The canvas of creation on parade An everlasting encore of my ways O but you, my love awaken my desire The burning embers in my heart Burst into a dance of fire As time is ticking 'round the clock As rain is feasting on the rocks The flowers of the field grow ever pale The beating heart of history shall fail O but you, my dove, your beauty never fades And I'm a prisoner at will To be in such a sweet captivity Lock me up and toss the key I'm yours, and I'm sure Of my ability to satisfy your longing to be loved So dance with me through meadows painted white Hold fast to me, and you will see that true love is true life

My heart swells with ambition To run far from all other visions I just want to sit in your temple and listen O, Lord, even the sparrows Have found more happiness where you are Their song echoes my soul's melody One day in your chambers Is better than thousands in all other houses One moment next to you Is worth more than treasure and wealth beyond measure Weeping valleys are made into Cool springs, where travelers wade O, Zion, you are this pilgrim's desire I would rather be one Who is home just being a son As I grow up far from the reach of another How could I ever go back I'm where I belong, this is where I belong I would not ever let go Of this kind of love, this kind of love

Here I hold my desire As it flickers and fades in the night It's not much of a fire But what I have I could never hide I wanna burn for you The way you burn for me I wanna yearn for you The way you yearn for me Seven flames all aglow O, this passion and zeal never end Come alive in my soul Overtake my affection, Lord At your table I find What this world never offered me That my heart feels alive As it beats to the rhythm you sing over me